Time off…

Every once in a while, I get this notion of going on a sabbatical… time off from everything I’m doing and everyone else outside the family circle… well not really everyone maybe just people I don’t want to be in contact with yet. The stress and pressure that comes with what I do just makes me crave for time alone. Don’t get me wrong though… I love what I do… and I’m passionate about it. Perhaps that’s the very reason why I would really require time off to recharge my batteries so I wouldn’t end up burned out and hating my work.

One time, I asked my “sistah-friend Sabrina if it was “OK” to be out of circulation for a few weeks to maybe a month and she couldn’t seem to believe I even asked about it. Well maybe because for starters she knows I have a jam-packed schedule of projects lined up till the end of this year.

A close friend who just became a scuba enthusiast after an invitation fun dive has been teasing me and bragging about her newly discovered wonders of the sea…. aaaah I could almost feel the silky feel of the ocean on my skin…. ooooohhhh And I have been having this on-the-shelf as of the moment, planned trip out of the country since April. But had I gone I would have left behind panic stricken clients who wouldn’t be appeased until they see me in person and just within their reach and I’m pretty sure if I had pushed thru in spite of their woes, I would be spending more than half of my holiday just talking on the phone with them. So my long awaited vacations had to be forgone.

But now, looking at my schedule for the next 4 months I could feel the insistent need in my bones to have this trip whether down the bottom of the sea or fly out of the country. I need to retreat and recharge so I can come back and bring with me renewed vigor, fresh ideas and yes…. life.

I need more talk time with my God as well. This daughter of His needs a father’s soothing words and enlightenment. I couldn’t actually find a quiet place in this noisy city to talk straight with Him without interruptions.

There are things I need to check with my “self” too. This body needs fresh air to replace the stale air we breathe here in the metropolis. At least for a moment I wouldn’t want to hear the honking of car horns, screeching tires on the highway, ringing of the phones, beeping of messages, buzzing of alarms and incessant chatter of people around me. I just want to hear the music played by the orchestra of God’s creations and my own heartbeat. This mind needs to be cleared of downloaded viruses and unwanted files. Now, the more I’m thinking about this needed break… the more the idea appeals to me! Hhhhmm I think next month is definitely the best time! Ciao!

Twists and Turns

10… 20… 30… years of life and every day never fails to amaze me….

Just contemplating…

Loving someone is never easy, especially when in the latter part you realize you weren’t meant to be for each other in the first place.. it hurts it pains.

 

But… The hardest part of loving is when you finally decide to let go coz you know a part of you goes with him too..  and you know that you’ll never be the same again.

 

there are good and bad things in life and we can choose to see the good things or not…. when things don’t happen the way we want it too… we cry our hearts out with all the pain we feel…. but then after we have cried our hearts and the tears dry up.. we realize that life still goes on no matter what… and we are left with a choice of moving on with life or letting things be as it was…

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