Mono£ogues

It was so weird when my birthday just came and passed without significance… it was as if it was like any ordinary day.  Before my birthday came… I was looking forward to it. Not so much for the reality that I’m gonna be getting one year older…. but more of the fact that I wanted it to be special and memorable coz if I reach my birthday and celebrate it… it would mean another promising year for me.

Most of the time… in the past, my birthday would fall on a working day. But always it never ended without me celebrating it. This year was totally different. Yes, I did reach my birthday and it was still a busy working day for me… but it ended without much hoopla. It ended with me just staring into the dark space… alone in my dark quiet room… listening only to the tick tock of the clock that signified the passing of time…. how ironic.

Of the 364 days of my life that passed… that was the loneliest night of my life… because all I could think of at that moment was that I missed celebrating my birthday with the people who matter in my life…. 

So I made myself a promise that night. That starting this year… my birthday would be celebrated the whole month of May! I would spend every day of my birthday month rejoicing.

It’s been nine days since my birthday and realized that, though I may not have been able to celebrate time for myself on the very day I was born…. still I have delighted and memorialized my birthday in every single day thereafter!

Now I get it! This is what would make my birthday significant! When I have the chance to be grateful for a really great year last year and am really thankful to be blessed again of the promise that I have each single day of another greater year to live and celebrate my life to the fullest! And looking at my calendar for the next months… it is indeed full of promise! I don’t need to celebrate my birthday for one day… I have 365 days to celebrate it! Wow! And that is amazing!   

Thank you Lord…. I know I don’t deserve it all the time… and even most of the time I don’t get it right away…. still you are always there as you promise… patient and loving… and as I have promised to you Lord…. and I will say it again… everything I do is for your glory!

Till my next birthday!