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Time off…

Every once in a while, I get this notion of going on a sabbatical… time off from everything I’m doing and everyone else outside the family circle… well not really everyone maybe just people I don’t want to be in contact with yet. The stress and pressure that comes with what I do just makes me crave for time alone. Don’t get me wrong though… I love what I do… and I’m passionate about it. Perhaps that’s the very reason why I would really require time off to recharge my batteries so I wouldn’t end up burned out and hating my work.

One time, I asked my “sistah-friend Sabrina if it was “OK” to be out of circulation for a few weeks to maybe a month and she couldn’t seem to believe I even asked about it. Well maybe because for starters she knows I have a jam-packed schedule of projects lined up till the end of this year.

A close friend who just became a scuba enthusiast after an invitation fun dive has been teasing me and bragging about her newly discovered wonders of the sea…. aaaah I could almost feel the silky feel of the ocean on my skin…. ooooohhhh And I have been having this on-the-shelf as of the moment, planned trip out of the country since April. But had I gone I would have left behind panic stricken clients who wouldn’t be appeased until they see me in person and just within their reach and I’m pretty sure if I had pushed thru in spite of their woes, I would be spending more than half of my holiday just talking on the phone with them. So my long awaited vacations had to be forgone.

But now, looking at my schedule for the next 4 months I could feel the insistent need in my bones to have this trip whether down the bottom of the sea or fly out of the country. I need to retreat and recharge so I can come back and bring with me renewed vigor, fresh ideas and yes…. life.

I need more talk time with my God as well. This daughter of His needs a father’s soothing words and enlightenment. I couldn’t actually find a quiet place in this noisy city to talk straight with Him without interruptions.

There are things I need to check with my “self” too. This body needs fresh air to replace the stale air we breathe here in the metropolis. At least for a moment I wouldn’t want to hear the honking of car horns, screeching tires on the highway, ringing of the phones, beeping of messages, buzzing of alarms and incessant chatter of people around me. I just want to hear the music played by the orchestra of God’s creations and my own heartbeat. This mind needs to be cleared of downloaded viruses and unwanted files. Now, the more I’m thinking about this needed break… the more the idea appeals to me! Hhhhmm I think next month is definitely the best time! Ciao!

Twists and Turns

10… 20… 30… years of life and every day never fails to amaze me….

A deep sigh….

I was just telling my purple feline friend tonight that… I have realized that holding back emotions is much tougher, more difficult and can cause a lot more stress than just expressing ones feelings without inhibitions… no holds barred… But expressing one’s self and one’s emotions can expose one to terrible pain and the agony of rejection especially when the feelings one expresses are unreciprocated… denied and refused… Taken for granted or taken advantage of… that is truly truly devastating noh! I’m just thinking aloud…. actually i have to stimulate  my thoughts right now coz I’m trying really hard to double time on finishing my book before Christmas!


haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…… that’s a silent shout…

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